Where is that adarsh gone away

There was this concept called adarsh, the concept that was a conundrum to everybody including himself, a concept that stood for his ideals, his dreams and his loves. he faught tooth and nail for his beliefs, believed he was there to make a difference in this place called earth, do something that was never done before, to forge a new path where there had been none, to say and do things never done before where is that boy gone.

Here is a poem i had written when i was in a similar mood long time ago

There were dreams i would dream when i was seventeen
words i would say which would move my day
hopes that would change every way
ones that would change the world today
and now as i sit by the grave
hoping i had another day hoping i had another day hoping i had another day

The world was a ship on its way
the rudder was a tool for me to play
i would take her where i wanted to go
show the world what it means to know
and now as i watch people show me the way
hoping i had another day hoping i had another day hoping i had another day

Where is the boy with the dream gone away
the innocent charm and ideals to bare
the one who wanted to fight his way
have a lot of fun and seize the day
and now as i feel them all washed away
hoping i had another day hoping i had another day hoping i had another day

Dreamt i could change the world someday
thought my country would need my change
tried to change my families way
never never did i change my own sway
and now that nothing has ever changed
hoping i had another day hoping i had another day hoping i had another day

I wish i had changed a year yesterday
same i would think a year today
waiting for change to change my way
all along i had my cards to play
and now that i have lost my way
hoping i had another day hoping i had another day hoping i had another day

well how true to form i feel when ever i read this poem i have written, well there was a matter of pride in the i have written, but thats about it, i havent gone anywhere after that.

i could write, i could play, i could code, i could invent, i could philophosize, i could make music, i could manage, i could dance......
all i am now is a reputation of the reputation i could have made, that was one thing i never wanted to do and thats what i am stuck doing, isnt that sad, well what can i say.....